Monday, June 27, 2005

The Battle Ensues


What I find most amazing about this picture is the fact that it accurately portrays how I feel inside. It's a never ending battle between what good still survives in me and the relentless beast who wants me to destroy myself.

The fact of the matter is that when I see myself, I see the monster. I don't see the good side; I only see a menacing demon. That is what I hate most about myself. For the most part, I am pretty content with who I am... or perhaps I'm just tolerant of who I am. Not only does the demon reside inside me, but it is also what I physically see. I wish I could look in the mirror and like what I see, but I don't. I never have. I just see a horrifying monster.

I'm always pretty optimistic on just about everything except myself. I can easily see the good in everything else... it's just so much more difficult to see it in myself.

3 comments:

Troy said...

Life will always have its dualistic nature. Most of us do fall victim to the "dark side" at least a few times in our lives. None of us have to accept this way of living and it's up to us (the individual) to fight and find peace and comfort. You're a fighter you'll find your comfort zone.

Elemmaciltur said...

That's a really interesting way to portray an angel and a demon. I mean, usually, the angel should be on top and the demon on the bottom, but it's vice versa here as if to implicate that the demon was overpowering the angel. From whom is the picture??

Frank said...

I don't remember where I got the picture from. I've had it for awhile.