Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Heart - Alone

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here, the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though

Til now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

You don't know how long i have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown

I haven’t heard this song in ages… til today at work. We had some Heart concert playing on one of the plasma demos. Why? I don’t know. It wasn’t a particularly great demo of surround sound, etc. It was on nonetheless, and it was nice to watch for a few minutes… a nice break from all of the inventory prep I’ve been doing in the store.

I would have told you a couple months ago that this song pretty accurately described how I felt… but not lately… not today… not anymore. I can still relate to it, virtually word for word, but I wouldn’t say I feel that way anymore.

Some have noticed a slight difference in my demeanor lately... that I’ve been indifferent. I didn’t realize what that difference was until today. I’m a pretty patient person (unless of course while I’m in the car… then road rage completely takes over.) More than that though, I’m a very tolerant person. Just because I can be very tolerant, doesn’t mean I will be anymore… at least not on the same level that I’ve previously been.

Not that it’s a New Year’s resolution (because I don’t really like those), but there’s some things I’m gonna correct this year. A lot of jacked-up stuff happened last year… some of it was outside of my control; some of it was within my control. This year, I will not tolerate the same kind of jacked-up situations that I do have some control over to bring me down.

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