Saturday, March 25, 2006

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

[Chorus:]
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

[Chorus]

Oh.. Holiday..

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
So I don’t even know where to start. I don’t know how much longer I can maintain this hopeful veneer. To say that things just aren’t going well right now would be a huge understatement. Sure, I’ve talked a bit with a few friends and family about how I’m feeling, but even then I never even really scratch the surface how badly all aspects of my life are completely and systematically falling apart. Things are just spiraling out of control.

I know that everything isn’t always great… that’s just life. Full of ups and downs… happiness and sorrow… it’s just that I usually have something going well in my life that I can fall back on when something is going terribly wrong. This just isn’t the case at the moment. Just about anything that could go wrong is going wrong.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m completely lost. This has easily been one of the most miserable months of my entire life, and it seems like things have just been getting progressively worse. I spend all day each day trying to make some sort of effort to improve anything… anything at all, no matter how small… but nothing seems to be working yet.

I haven’t slept more two hours a night all month long… I constantly feel sick… my body always feels so weak… I’m having a lot of difficulty eating… I’m relentlessly exhausted. I haven’t given up yet, but I honestly don’t know how much more of this I can take.

I’m leaving for Las Vegas tomorrow and won't be back til late Wednesday... and I really don’t want to go. I’d prefer to stay and try to continue fixing things with my life… try to at least regain some sort of control.

I really do apologize for the depressing post… I just had to get this off my chest.

5 comments:

celtgirl said...

It will get better. Go see the show if you get the chance. There's a late one, 11:00 or so. It will help - it always helps me.

Talk to Mom, she'll help you. And I promise, it will get better. I don't know when, but it will.

Frazzled said...

I saw you Friday, Saturday and talked to you Sunday and every time I ask - you say everything's fine, you're not worrying about work anymore, etc., so what gives?! Are you lying to your momma now?!

Elemmaciltur said...

Hang in there...you'll make it through.

Hey, email me your postal address will ya? I forgot to jot it down before leaving Munich.....so that when I find a decent postcard, I could send you one! ;)

gothamwhore said...

he's hot. I didn't read a word of his lyrics, but does that really matter? :)

gothamwhore said...

Ok, now I actually read your post :)

I always feel the same way. It's stress and anxiety. Find some pills and take a vacation!