Sunday, May 14, 2006

Melissa Manchester – Don’t Cry Out Loud


Baby cried the day the circus came to town
Cause she didn't want parades just passing by her
So she painted on a smile and took up with some clown
While she danced without a net upon the wire
I know a lot about her cause, you see
Baby is an awful lot like me

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside, learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

Baby saw that when they pulled that big top down
They left behind her dreams among the litter
The different kind of love she thought she'd found
There was nothing left but sawdust and some glitter
But baby can't be broken cause you see
She had the finest teacher - that was me - I told her

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost made it

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
Today marks the one year anniversary of this blog. In some ways the year went by all too quickly; in others it seemed to just drag on miserably. I remember that day as if it were yesterday… in fact, I remember just about any given day pretty vividly. So let that be a note for many of you: If I tell you I don’t remember something, I really do… it’ll just be for one reason or another I just don’t want to talk about it.

Since I typically remember most days pretty accurately, I don’t ever really read this blog. Once I post something, I’m pretty much through with that particular post (unless I’m commenting on a comment.) So today, I actually went back and read every post. I look back on the list I posted on 8/20/05 of things I wanted to accomplish by year’s end. Some were completed, some weren’t.

• “Swimming… I love to swim. I need to get into a routine where I’m swimming on a regular basis. I’ve always found it to be completely relaxing!”

Status: Incomplete. I always forget my swimming trunks when I’m at the gym. For that matter, I have no freaking idea where they currently are, so that’s the root of the problem. I just need to stop being lazy and purchase some new ones!

• “I need to get some discrepancies removed from my credit report. From what I can tell, the two negative items on it are not accurate. I’m really close to having a superior credit rating; I just need to retain some legal services to get these inaccuracies removed.”

Status: In Progress. I don’t have it completely fixed, but I did get it cleaned up enough for when I needed my credit to be decent last year. Ever since that went through, I’m really in no hurry at the moment to completely polish it up. Anytime this year is fine now.

• “I want my six-pack back on a more consistent basis! It comes and goes in about a 3-day rotation. I simply want to maintain it! In all fairness, it won’t take me the rest of the year to achieve this… rather about one week. I just need to maintain the high level of cardio exercise that I’ve been doing (since I eat like a garbage disposal!)”

Status: Complete!!! Finally, got one freaking goal done! Now I just need to work on the lats!

• “Begin fencing again. I need to find someone genuinely interested in learning it. I have a great wealth of knowledge in the area; it’s just not a big sport in TX. It’ll also be fun to take my aggressions out on someone by beating the hell out of them with an epee, foil, or saber (guaranteed to leave welts!) Surely someone wants to learn the dark art!”

Status: Incomplete. I’ll be perfectly honest here… no one around here is worthy to receive my secrets on this dark art!!! Haha! Actually, I just really haven’t made the time to do this yet.

• “Get some new contact and glasses prescriptions. I’ve got a great vision plan I pay for each month, I need to use the service! Besides, it’s been nearly 3 years since I got my prescription for my glasses renewed, and almost 5 years since I had my contact prescription updated!”

Status: Complete!!! Well, it’s complete for the most part. I got some new contacts. I’m not so worried about the glasses since I primarily just use them at home. Besides, when I wear them in public, people still recognize me. WTF!!! How does Superman get away with it?!?

• “Move closer to work. Let’s face it, gas prices are jacked! I spend $35 every 4-5 days fueling my car! That’s about $270 a month (about $150 more than I’m use to!) I also won’t be required to wake up at the ass crack of dawn to try to beat rush hour traffic.”

Status: Complete!!! I honestly don’t know if this is a good thing or not. I’m at work all the freaking time now! I practically live there. Luckily, I enjoy what I do and love the people there, otherwise it would be pretty sad (as if it’s really not sad that work is more or less my entire life!)

• “Finally get my car fixed! Damn… the rear has only been jacked up since March! I’m tired of looking at it! I just need to find some time (and gather the money) to just get it done! I want my car to look hot again!”

Status: Complete!!! But complete at what cost? I had to get in an accident where firefighters told me: “Dude, how did you survive that impact?” Because that's just the way of things! In the end though, I didn’t have to pay for the repairs. So, mixed blessing on that one!

• “Register for spring classes. My company just brought back tuition reimbursement last week. Ever since then, the thought has constantly been on my mind! I’ve got a great job with decent hours and good pay… and if they’ll also pay for me to go to school on top of that, then I think I’ll do it!”

Status: Incomplete. Er, I don’t know if I’m ever gonna get this done. I barely give myself time to sleep as it is.

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