Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Sunday, September 24, 2006

The Third...

We believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of Life,
who proceeds from the Father and the Son.
With the Father and the Son he is worshipped and glorified.
He has spoken through the Prophets.

Five For Fighting - Superman (revisited)

I actually posted this song's lyrics on a blog entry several months ago, so I'm not going to repost them now. I just wanted to revisit the song and actually post the mp3 file (as I'm listening to it right now).

As I read that original post of this song, I can't help but realize that not much has changed from then. The song still has the exact same meaning for me now as it did then.

As much as I can relate to this song, I'm not Superman. I'm not someone others should come to as a source of strength or look up to. I am no one special.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

And You Thought I Was Gone...

Ok, I’m finally updating this thing… so now the constant harassment from everyone can come to an end! LOL!

One reason I haven’t updated the old blog very often is simply that I’ve been so freaking busy. I’m at work constantly. I’ve been working ridiculous hours… and for no reason. They’ve been working us like slaves for absolutely no reason at all!

Another reason I haven’t kept up with this blog is because this blog was originally a place I’d go when I was lonely or sad. I’ve been neither of these for quite a while. In fact, I’ve never been happier over the last few months.

I have been both lonely and just plain sad over the last couple days. There’s just so much crap going on… I feel like my whole life is falling apart.

I’m getting ready to move… a move that’s gonna suck bad! I have to be out of my current apartment by Sept 30, and I can’t move into my new one until after Oct 7. So that in itself sucks… not to mention I have very little help. My dad is gonna help me move my crap into storage on Wed… and that’s all the help I’m gonna get with that unfortunately.

I caught a nasty cold a few days ago. I was feeling perfectly fine, I took a nap for one hour, and when I woke I had a cold, hard-core! I don’t even know where it came from! I’m actually feeling better, though I think the cold moved into my chest. With any luck, I’ll get pneumonia and just die! LOL!

And then there’s work… the name for my pain! It is truly a den of thieves… a bordello of lies… a wretched hive of scum and villainy. I don’t know how much longer I can put up with it. It is driving me crazy. I can no longer tolerate the backwards-talk and hypocrisy anymore.

I’ve also just been lonely, hurt, and miserable. Who can I turn to for support? I kinda just feel numb of all emotion right now. I haven’t felt this sad in awhile. I don’t want to get into this too much. I’m just plain miserable. That’s all I have to say about that. :-(

I’m just plain scared. I don’t feel like I have any control over my life right now. I feel like I’m headed on a course of destruction, and I have no one to help steer me clear of it.