Tuesday, May 31, 2005


My drive to work is about 25 miles. I don't think anything of it (partly because I love listening to XM), but others think that's too much of a journey. I typically start the day off pretty early, so I miss the morning rush hour. When I leave work, I'll leave before or after the evening rush hour. So for the most part, I really haven't been through heavy traffic in awhile.

I spent most of the day being as unproductive as one can be on a day off of work. I slept late... I got up to eat... went back to bed... got back up to eat... went back to bed again... etc. I had a 6:00pm appointment with Justin, my personal trainer, which was about the only productive thing I've done all day.

Now, whenever I get more sleep than I'm used to, which is usually anything over five to six hours, I'm tired all day. I'm not really sure why that happens. You'd think that getting more sleep would make you less tired... this is not the case. So I was worried that I was going to be quite sluggish at the gym.

On my way to the gym, the traffic was absolutely atrocious! I'm a pretty level headed guy. I can take bad news rather well, deal with upset people, get yelled at, etc... and not get upset by it. Traffic on the other hand just makes me plain angry! I get such road rage. I don't even know who I am when the road rage sets in... I'm like Bruce Banner turned Hulk when I'm driving in traffic.

Needless to say, the incredible irritation with the traffic had me really pumped up when I finally arrived at the gym. I was still so upset about the traffic that my heart rate was nearly at what I needed it to be at for my 10 minutes of warmup cardio!

The other thing that really annoyed me on the way to the gym is the condition of the roads in Pflugerville. There are huge potholes everywhere. Why does it take so long for someone to fix this problem? Several months ago, Kimball lost a brand new tire to a Pflugerville pothole.

Anyway, that's all I have to say about traffic! I need to get to bed, and just thinking about that awful drive today is beginning to raise my blood pressure! LOL!

Yet Again, Another Personality Test

Anytime I'm feeling bored, I can always count on LiquidGeneration for some entertainment. So this evening, I took Which Movie Hero Are You Quiz. I don't know what to think about this one. It appears I'm most compatible with Spiderman.

I've always loved Spiderman, so I think it's awesome to be compared to him... but surely I don't live a life as depressing as Peter Parker. Maybe I do, and that's why I find it so disturbing! Alright, I'll admit it, I am just as miserable as Peter Parker... I'll just need to spend more time being Spiderman! LOL!

The Future of Digital Cinema is Here!

So I finally had the exciting opportunity to view Revenge of the Sith at a DLP (Digital Light Processor) theater last night. I was simply expecting that the picture would look a better, etc. To my surprise, I was absolutely astonished! The picture and sound quality were remarkable! The clarity and detail were incredible. The DLP's can produced up to 35 trillion colors! It was like watching a high definition movie on a 200 ft plasma TV.

It's sad to think that not many movies are shot digitally, so currently there would be a big push for theaters to get more DLP's. I mean there are only two movies out at the moment that were filmed digitally, Revenge of the Sith and Madagascar. In addition, there are only slightly over 200 theaters worldwide that even have DLP projectors... only four theaters in Texas. The Galaxy over near Highland Mall is the only one in the Austin area.

I'll definitely need to go see Star Wars again on the DLP sometime this next week... or maybe next week when I'm off of work! Long live DLP!

Monday, May 30, 2005

Let's Hear It For Pepé!

I just absolutely love Pepé Le Pew. I can really relate to him, minus the stink (because I don't smell bad!) LOL! He has all the qualities of a great lover. He is a born romantic. His enthusiasm knows no bounds. His ego is as big as the Eiffel Tower. He showers les femmes with flowery come-ons, champagne, and gifts. He purrs. He coos. He cajoles... All in that entrancing French accent.

But like all great heroes, he has a flaw: his natural, er, "perfume." That skunk stench has been known to make flowers wilt as he walks by. Buildings clear out the moment the amorous Pepé enters. Marble statues—which have survived hundreds of years of rain and wind—melt in his presence.

But worst of all, that stench makes the ladies run away from Pepé in horror. Love may be blind, but its ability to smell is A-OK. But luckily for our olfactory-challenged lover, he has one other abiding quality, perhaps his best: He won't take no for an answer.

Perhaps Pepé Le Pew would have less trouble with the lovely ladies if he stuck to his own species. Pepé has an unfortunate habit of falling not for skunks, but for discolored black cats with white stripes painted down their backs.

Pepé's Sure-fire Pickup lines...
  • “You are my peanut, I am your brittle!”
  • “Where are you, my little gumbo of chicken ? Your French fried shrimp is sizzling for you.”
  • “Permit me to introduce myself, I am your new lover.”
  • “Where are you, my little object of art? I am here to collect you.”
  • “Is it possible to be too attractive?”
  • “You know, most men would get discouraged by now fortunately for you, I am not most men!”
  • “You stop resisting me, bebe, and I’ll stop resisting you.”
  • “You are the corned beef, and I am the cabbage. The corned beef is nothing without the cabbage.”
  • “The game of love is never called on account of darkness, my little midnight snack."

Lobo - I'd Love You to Want Me

When I saw you standing there
I bout fell out my chair
And when you moved your mouth to speak
I felt the blood go to my feet.

Now it took time for me to know
what you tried so not to show
Now something in my soul just cries
I see the want in your blue eyes.

Baby, I'd love you to want me
The way that I want you
The way that it should be
Baby, you'd love me to want you
The way that I want to
If you'd only let it be.

You told yourself years ago
You'd never let your feeling show
The obligation that you made
For the title that they gave.


Now it took time for me to know
what you tried so not to show
Now something in my soul just cries
I see the want in your blue eyes.


Sunday, May 29, 2005

Internet Explorer Sucks

I just viewed this blog for the first time ever with Internet Explorer just a few minutes ago. All I can say is that Internet Explorer sucks! If you're not using FireFox, then this blog may look jacked up sometimes. Besides, FireFox is a much better browser... built in pop-up blocker, open source for personal modifications, privacy and security from spyware, tabbed browsing, and most importantly... it's not made by Microsoft!

O Fortuna of Carmina Burana

O Fortuna              O Fortune,
velut luna like the moon
statu variabilis, you are changeable,
semper crescis ever waxing
aut decrescis; and waning;
vita detestabilis hateful life
nunc obdurat first oppresses
et tunc curat and then soothes
ludo mentis aciem, as fancy takes it;
egestatem, poverty
potestatem and power
dissolvit ut glaciem. it melts them like ice.

Sors immanis Fate - monstrous
et inanis, and empty,
rota tu volubilis, you whirling wheel,
status malus, you are malevolent,
vana salus well-being is vain
semper dissolubilis, and always fades to nothing,
obumbrata shadowed
et velata and veiled
michi quoque niteris; you plague me too;
nunc per ludum now through the game
dorsum nudum I bring my bare back
fero tui sceleris. to your villainy.

Sors salutis Fate is against me
et virtutis in health
michi nunc contraria, and virtue,
est affectus driven on
et defectus and weighted down,
semper in angaria. always enslaved.
Hac in hora So at this hour
sine mora without delay
corde pulsum tangite; pluck the vibrating strings;
quod per sortem since Fate
sternit fortem, strikes down the string man,
mecum omnes plangite! everyone weep with me!

Some People

Working in retail, especially as a manager, one comes across a wide spectrum of people. Most people are what I would call "normal." Occasionally you run into some funny weirdos too... However, it's the dumb ones you always remember!!!

I want to know what store in the world allows you to return an item that's over five years old for a full refund!!! Apparently, the dumb people shop there all of the time and expect everyone else to have the same gracious return policy!

My motto is simple:

Rule #1: The customer is always right.

Rule #2: They must pay for their arrogance!

One thing I've learned is that you should never underestimate the power of dumb people in large groups... I mean hell, that's the only way you can explain why George W. Bush is president!

Abba - Take a Chance on Me

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey, I'm still free, take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you got no place to go, when you're feeling down
If you're all alone, when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free, take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, If you let me try
Take a chance on me, take a chance on me

We can go dancing, we can go walking
As long as we're together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking
You'd get to know me better
'Cause you know I've got so much that I wanna do
When I dream I'm alone with you, it's magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know, that I can't let go


Oh, you can take your time, baby, I'm in no hurry
I know I'm gonna get you
You don't wanna hurt me, baby don't worry
I ain't gonna let you
Let me tell you now, my love is strong enough
To last when things are rough, it's magic
You say that I waste my time, But I can't get you off my mind
No I can't let go, 'cause I love you so


Pa-pa-pa-pa-pow, pa-pa-pa-pa-pow
Honey, I'm still free, take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can't you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Things We Learned from Revenge of the Sith

Chewbacca is probably still picking sand out of his hair from the Battle of Kashyyyk when we see him in A New Hope.

The Emperor isn't bald under his hood.

People from Naboo don't look like beach balls when pregnant with twins.

Despite murdering dozens of children, betraying your friends, and choking your wife, you can still have good in you.

While Stormtroopers may not be a great shot, Clone Troopers are!

Even cyborg generals can get Tuberculosis.

The Jedi's health insurance policy does not cover lost limbs, but the Sith plan has you covered.

Top Ten Signs You've Seen Star Wars Too Many Times

10. Your poodles are named "C," "3," "P" and "O"

9. You won't sleep with your wife unless she says, "Help me, Obi Wan, you're my only hope"

8. You spent $10,000 trying to Rogaine yourself into Chewbacca

7. You're continually stunned when the President makes major decisions without consulting Mark Hamill

6. Your favorite pickup line: "Would you like to handle my light saber?"

5. You keep referring to your lawn mower as "that crazy droid"

4. You spend most of your days trying to use "the Force" to open a can of pears

3. You once saw an eggplant that looked kind of like Darth Vader and almost had a heart attack

2. Your sex life is strictly "Han Solo," if you know what I mean

1. You like Yoda so much, you voted for Ross Perot

Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say


But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return


I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
I don't know

Starting the day on the right foot

It's so dark outside... the rain is pouring so hard. This morning, the weather truly does reflect how my soul feels. Hopefully all the tears shed by the day will help wash away some of the anguish and sorrow. I actually did cry myself to sleep last night... haven't done that in a long time!

Take my broken heart and torn up soul out of the equation, today hasn't really started off badly. I saw Ron this morning while I was getting my car fueled up and got to talk to him a bit... I think he was getting breakfast at McDonalds (not really sure, didn't ask). At work, our point of sale system was completely down. Now typically, this is a catastrophically bad thing!!! The UPS that powered on the backup system was dead. Since I'm quite familiar with electrical circuit theory, I was able to get it fixed (well, "rigged" is a more accurate term) without much problem, so everything is up and running.

I'm confident that today and next week will be great!

Friday, May 27, 2005

Toad the Wet Sprocket - All I Want

Nothing's so loud
As hearing when we lie
The truth is not kind
And you've said neither am I
But the air outside so soft is saying everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close, to feel the same
All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say...

Nothing's so cold
As closing the heart when all we need
Is to free the soul
But we wouldn't be that brave I know
And the air outside so soft, confessing everything


And it won't matter now
Whatever happens to me
Though the air speaks of all we'll never be
It won't trouble me

And it feels so close
Let it take me in
Let it hold me so
I can feel it say...

Thursday, May 26, 2005

I Need More Strength

OK... I should be in bed again... instead I am pacing and thinking. Today I haven't eaten as much as I should have, I can't really sleep at all, my body aches (in all fairness, probably from the gym), I have a general feeling of light-headedness, yet am smiling all the while. My heart feels like it is fluttering, my stomach is rolling, yet my soul is flying with anticipation, excitement, hope, and fear (I'm obviously quite confused). I am paid to be a leader and communicator, yet I am unable to put together a few simple words for fear that they won't be right. Bigger yet, the fear they won't be received well.

I am a very practical guy... I like to have control over things... I like to make decisions without being dictated by emotion. I hate when emotions are completely overwhelming - I'm just not accustom to it. I prefer to have my wits about me! I'm supposed to be a tamer of armies (or so some would say, LOL)... why do I feel like such a little punk!? Heh!

I have worked so hard and sacrificed so much to get where I am... to have a stable career (somewhat)... to have financial freedom (to a large degree)... to be independent and confident (most of the time). But recently, I feel like a fish flopping around on the deck of a boat... not knowing if the next move by others will be to mercifully throw me back in the water, even more mercifully to stomp me on the head, or do nothing and let me continue not breathing.

If I were to discover absolute perfection that would make my time on this earth complete, I feel I may not possess the courage to lay it on the line and express the tremendous emotional rush I've been feeling inside. My entire world and my entire being could change with just a few words.

Too many decisions! I need my focus back... I don't know if I can afford to make too many more mistakes... my heart can't take anymore! I really just need to find a book of answers - all the answers in the world! LOL! :-)

Alias - More Than Words Can Say

Here I am at six o’clock in the morning
Still thinking about you
It’s still hard, at six o’clock in the morning
To sleep without you

And I know that it might
Seem too late for love
All I know

I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
I’ve got to find a way
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now

Here I am, I’m looking out my window
I’m dreaming about you
Can’t let you go, at six o’clock in the morning
I feel you beside me

And I know that it might
Seem too late for love
For love Oh, Oh, Oh

I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
I’ve got to find a way
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
Oh I got to hear you say
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now
I need you now

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Which Movie Villain Are You?

LiquidGeneration.com has a lot of fun little personality tests. I just took the "Which Movie Villain Are You?" test located in the Quiz section, link located at the bottom right of the website. I'm going to need to try them all out!

Turns out I'd be Darth Vader. That figures... in the Ultimate Star Wars Personality Test I was Anakin Skywalker. It's only natural that my evil side should be Darth Vader. I wonder what other movie villains people could be on the test. I think it's cool that I ended up a Star Wars villain! LOL!

What movie villain are you?

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

When Things Fall Apart

I am so exhausted... physically, mentally, and emotionally. Not only that, I'm tired of feeling this way! It's getting old! I have so much to be grateful for (and I am), but this year has just not been the best.

Work just isn't what it used to be. I used to love being there... now I can't stand it. The powers that be (district and regional management) are no good at all. They're horrible! I've lost all of my confidence in the company simply because of the irresponsible things that they have done over the last few months. They make some of the worst decisions ever. It's almost as if they're purposely trying to tank the company. So needless to say, I'm at a point where I absolutely hate my job!

Socially, I don't get to hang out with my friends very often, as usual. I'm not seeing anyone, as usual. I'm so lonely. Do I drive people away? I always try to be there when others need help, I just wish I had someone that could be there for me too. I wish I had someone I could be close to and feel safe with. I've convinced myself that perhaps I'm simply undeserving of love, or even that I'm not meant to have anyone special in my life... I understand that is stupid and incorrect, but it's also has helped my broken heart survive (in an admittedly unhealthy way). I haven't been able to cry in a few years, but I feel that I could right now.

I try to have a positive outlook on things each day, and most of the time I feel fine. I'm just finding that it's getting more and more difficult each day to be happy. I feel that life has nothing more to show me. Something has to change! I don't know what though. I've recently been thinking about just packing up and leaving. Starting over from scratch somewhere far away.

Deep inside, my heart still is optimistic... at the same time, my heart is all torn up. I feel so broken. I don't know what to believe anymore. Anyway, all that being said, I'm still going to try to have a wonderful day and an awesome week! I hope something great can happen this year!

Monday, May 23, 2005

Congratulations Jennifer!

Jennifer, one of my younger sisters, just graduated from the University of Texas at Austin with a Bachelors of Arts in Mathematics! She's worked really hard over the last few years... I know at times she's been very frustrated... worried that she won't be able to do anything with a math degree. She kept on fighting though! She's interested in attending UT's Pharmacy School next!

So Jennifer, I wish you the best of luck with anything you choose to pursue, and you'll always have my full support! I'm so very proud of you!

Math runs strong in my family... my father has it, I have it, and my sister has it... LOL!

Spike - Rest in Peace

I died
So many years ago
You can make me feel
Like it isn't so
And why you come to be with me
I think I finally know

You're scared
Ashamed of what you feel
And you can't tell the ones you love
You know they couldn't deal
Whisper in a dead man's ear
It doesn't make it real
That's great

But I don't wanna play
'Cause being with you touches me
More than I can say
And since I’m only dead to you
I’m saying stay away and
Let me rest in peace

Let me rest in peace
Let me get some sleep
Let me take my love and bury it
In a hole 6-foot deep
I can lay my body down
But I can't find my, sweet release
So let me rest in peace

You know,
You got a willing slave
You just love to play the thought
That you might misbehave
Till you do,
I'm telling you
Stop visiting my grave
Let me rest in peace

I know I should go
But I follow you like a man possessed
There's a traitor here beneath my breast
And it hurts me more than you've ever guessed
If my heart could beat, it would break my chest
but I can see you're unimpressed
So leave me be and


Why won't you
Let me rest in peace?

This is song is from Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Once More With Feeling Musical

Sunday, May 22, 2005

The Ultimate Star Wars Personality Test

So I took The Ultimate Star Wars Personality Test... and surprise, surprise... I'm most compatible with Anakin Skywalker, the tragic hero who falls to darkness! LOL!

In all fairness, Anakin is my favorite character because I do relate to him the most. I freely admit that I have pretty much all of his character strengths and flaws. I just hope that when I'm presented a choice on whether or not to turn to a "darkside," that I have the fortitude to resist! Hehe!

So, what Star Wars character are you most like?

The Age of the Roomba!

I've been feeling rather down and depressed lately. Don't know why. I've just been so tired this last week. Typically I can shake it off after a few hours, but this time the depression has latched on pretty tight! I hope it's something simple that I can easily fix, like a carbon-monoxide leak from the water heater! Heh! I wish I could just press Ctrl-Alt-Del and do a complete reboot (I find it helpful when my PC gets jacked up... maybe it could work on me!) LOL!

Anyways, I've found a little device that has brought me a bit of joy over the last few days... the Roomba! This thing is a robot that travels around a room and vacuums it. When it comes into contact with an object that it cannot move, it goes around it. Best of all, you never have to worry about its power... when it feels it needs more power, it will return to its base on its own to recharge.

I found myself mezmorized by the Roomba for about an hour today at work. I'm pretty sure that do to my current emotional state, I could literally watch this thing vacuum all day! It's just so soothing to watch... kinda like fish in an aquarium. I definitely need to get one of these things! They are so cool!

Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...


No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

[Chorus x2]

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Why is the rum gone?

I was excited to learn that on July 7, 2006, Pirates of the Caribbean: Treasure of the Lost Abyss (2005 working title) is slated to open! Johnny Depp returns as Capatin Jack Sparrow, accompanied by Daddy Jack played by Keith Richards.

What's funny about this is that in an interview last year, Johnny Depp said that one of his primary inspirations for Jack Sparrow's weird personality was Rolling Stone Keith Richards. I just hope old Keefo knows how to act!

If the movie is anything like the first, I'm sure it will be great!

Well! I’m actually feeling rather good about this. I think we've all arrived at a very special place, eh? Spiritually… Ecumenically… Grammatically?

Simple Plan - Addicted

I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm addicted to you

Friday, May 20, 2005

The Battle Within

Sometimes, when I'm tired especially, I just simply feel broken... feel that no one will ever really care or love me. There's so many things to be happy for (which I am); however, there's a part of me that simply enjoys pain. Not inflicting pain on others, just myself. I don't know why. I think it's a manufacturer's defect that no longer has any repair coverage... something I simply have to deal with.

I am genuinely happy with my life, I just sometimes can't escape the problems within. There's always a power struggle inside... the good typically wins, but the bad does have an occasional victory.

Josh once told me that I put myself in situations that I know won't work out so that I have an excuse to be miserable. I hope that's not true! He has also suggested that I stay away from love as it will only weaken my heart. I don't believe that though... I feel that surviving and coping with heartache has actually made me much stronger over the years!

I am optimistic that I will one day experience the great parts of love, and not just the pain (I think I got that part down pretty well now! LOL!) :-)

Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out

So if you're lonely,
You know i'm here waiting for you,
I'm just a crosshair,
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken shattered alive
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot..then we can die

I know I wont be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out
I say you don't show
Don't move time is slow
I say... take me out

I say you don't know
You say you don't go
I say... take me out

I know I wont be leaving here (with you)
I know I wont be leaving here
I know I wont be leaving here (with you)
I know I wont be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out
If I move this could die
Eyes move this can die
C'mon...take me out

I know I wont be leaving here (with you)
I know I wont be leaving here
I know I wont be leaving here (with you)
I know I wont be leaving here with you

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Revenge of the Sith

Ok, so it's finally out! I thought it was a great movie. I actually liked it better than A New Hope and Return of the Jedi. The Empire Strikes Back is still the best, but this movie rocked!

The only thing that bothered me had nothing to do with the movie itself... it was the sound in the theater. It didn't sound like the volume was up enough. It was really noticeable at the classic beginning scene, the Star Wars opening title and fanfare. Apparently, Ron tells me that they just recalibrated the speakers in the theater, yet he too felt that the sound was off. Perhaps there was something physically wrong with the copy they had.

This movie was a great change from the other two prequels. It was everything I've been waiting for, dark!!! It was great to finally see the battle between Anakin and Obi-Wan, the Emperor and Yoda, the annihilation of the Jedi, etc... I wish I could see it again later today, but I have to work!

I read The Revenge of the Sith book when it came out last month (spoilers don't bother me). The nice thing about the book is that you get a great deal of insight into what each character is feeling and thinking. The reactions they have to certain events that occur are much more meaningful and colorful in the book. The story that the book told was better than the movie; however, I must say that this movie is quite visually appealing (if only the audio could have been there as well!)

Anyhow, I'm overjoyed to have seen the final episode... the one that finally ties the Star Wars universe together. I also find it sad that it is now over. It's the end of an era. It seems that everything has just happened so quickly. I'm still looking forward to other movies this year: Fantastic Four and The Lion, The Witch, & The Wardrobe.

Oh yeah! Anakin is a real hottie!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Stevie B - Because I Love You

I got your letter
From the postman just the other day
So I decided to write you this song
Just to let you know
Exactly the way I feel
To let you know my love's for real

Because I love you
And Ill do anything
Ill give you my heart, my everything
Because I love you
Ill be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

If you should feel
That I dont really care
And that youre starting to lose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And that Ill always be around

Because I love you
My hearts an open door
Girl, wont you please come on in
Because I love you
Ill be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide
Because I love you
Ill be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Vito Corleone

I'm not really sure what series of thoughts made me think of this today, but I've been thinking about how much I enjoy The Godfather: Part I. Marlon Brando did a spectacular job in that movie as Vito Corleone. One of my favorite scenes in the movie is the short speech he gives during the meeting with the heads of the five families:

"You talk about vengeance -- is vengeance gonna bring your son back to you? Or my boy to me? I forgo the vengeance of my son. But I have selfish reasons. My youngest son was forced to leave this country because of this Sollozzo business. All right... and I have to make arrangements to bring him back here safely, cleared of all these false charges. But I'm a superstitious man, and if some unlucky accident should befall him, if he should get shot in the head by a police officer, or if he should hang himself in his jail cell, or if he's struck by a bolt of lightning -- then I'm going to blame some of the people in this room. And that, I do not forgive!"

Monday, May 16, 2005


I get some nice perks working at an electronics retailer. I get merchandise discounted, sometimes even straight from the manufacturer themselves (at ridiculously low prices, even free at times)... but my friend Ron has one of the best job perks, especially now. Ron is a manager at our local theater, Cinemark Tinseltown 20. He gets to preview movies before they're released to the general public.

That punk, Ron, just text messaged me that he's about to watch Revenge of the Sith in 30 minutes!!! I'm so JEALOUS!!! LOL! I have to wait two more days!!! Ahhhhh!!!

Why Not?

So, I'm often asked, "Why are you always happy?" I always answer, "Why not?" If I want to have a horrible day, I can. Personally, I'd rather have a great day. I can't control many of the events that will transpire throughout any given day. The only power I have over these events is how I choose to react to them.

For example, several weeks ago... one of your friends, who is one of the best people in the world, dies much too young... a great guy tells you (again) that he doesn't like and never will... you injure your knee so badly that anytime it moves in any way, it makes the worst noise you've ever heard... your boss's boss's boss is bothering the hell out of you... the ultra conservative judge denies you deferred adjudication and orders you to pay your traffic fine... etc (there's a few more things, I'll just leave it at that, you get the picture though)... all of this occurring in the course of a 24 hour period of time. Now I'm going to be honest, this was not the making of a great day; however, rather than let these events, which were outside of my control (maybe knee thing was self-inflicted), destroy me emotionally, I simply looked at what was going right in my life. I have a great job, many friends who care about me, fun ferrets, etc...

You only have control over so much. If you want to be miserable, go ahead. It's your right to feel how you choose. I choose to be happy! Why not?

Overrated Jedi

I always get a bunch of complaints from my friends for this belief, but I truly believe that Obi-Wan Kenobi is completely overrated!

First off, he should never have been able to kill Darth Maul! Obi-Wan was still a Jedi Apprentice when he faced Maul. Darth Maul was a trained killer; a true dark lord of the Sith! I still am offended that George Lucas allowed Maul to be defeated by Obi-Wan in the manner that occurred at the end of Phantom Menace! Obi-Wan simply didn't win by a fluke or a matter of chance; he sliced Maul in half! How can people stand for this blasphemy!

Obi-Wan vs General Grievous... how is it that Obi-Wan, a newly appointed Jedi Master, could overcome Grievous where no other Jedi Master before him could? And not only that, Obi-Wan defeats Grievous all alone. It's impossible! The only reason this is because Obi-Wan has a guardian angel, George Lucas!

Under no circumstance should Obi-Wan be able to defeat Anakin! Obi-Wan may have more experience, but he certainly is not more powerful! I can only accept Obi-Wan's victory over Anakin as a mistake or simply luck (seems like he has a lot of dumb luck)!

Obi-Wan receives entirely too much credit for training Luke. He only exposed Luke to the Force, he didn't really train him on how to use... simply how to feel it. Yoda did all of the tedious work in training Luke.

Put simply, Obi-Wan really isn't as great as he's made out to be. He really just 'Forest Gumped' his way through the entire Star Wars story.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

New to Jazz?

I enjoy listening to all kinds of music. One in particular is jazz. I find that most of my friends aren't really into it though. They just can't get the feel for it, I guess. Many of them have tried to add jazz to their own personal musical mélange but simply don't know where to begin.

Two fantastic albums I recommend are The Essence of Maynard Ferguson and Doc Severinsen & the Tonight Show Band, Vol 1. Most of the music on these two albums are very upbeat, so those who primarily listen to a lot of contemporary music should be able to appreciate this kind of jazz!

I love the all of the music on both of these albums, but my favorites would have to be Birdland and MacArthur's Park (Maynard Ferguson) and Sax Alley (Doc Severinsen).

Papa Roach - Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand


I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Just What I Needed

One of the best things about working at an electronics retailer has to be the slogans the company chooses.

When I first started, the slogan was "Imagine That." That was great! We're missing a camcorder... imagine that! Hey, wait a minute, the government is over-taxing me... imagine that! The eMachine display computer isn't booting up... imagine that!

Now, it's "Just What I Needed." Hey, you have an angry customer wanting to speak with you... just what I needed! The DirectTV feed isn't working... just what I needed. That customer doesn't want to buy anything but that open box computer, and he wants to know how much cheaper you can make it... just what I needed! I'm interested in a digital camera, but I'm not buying one today, can you tell me all about them... just what I needed!

Waiting for Revenge of the Sith

As time the draws closer to 12:01am 5-19-05, sleep is harder and harder to come by. I find myself taking all kinds of medications at night to try to sleep. Nyquil works pretty well!

It is you who are mistaken, about a great many things!